Over Halfway

Hello all,

I am now officially out of hiding, or at least I finally feel like I am coming out of the fog that has been surrounding me for months. I am now over halfway through my pregnancy and the fog of sickness, worry, and doubt has begun to lift away from me. I have spent so much time and energy being scared that something awful would happen again during this pregnancy, that I don't think that I enjoyed it very much, so I am making more of an effort for the second half.

Work is ridiculous! I was so worried that when I told my clients to expect a brief absence in late August and Early September, that many would find another, non-pregnant stylist to go see. Thankfully, this has not been the case and I am very blessed that they are as excited, if not more so, than me and they have been so supportive and loving. I guess this is what happens when you have clients for many years.

I miss Mark. He has only been working for a few days and already I feel like he is gone all the time. I am sad and emotional, most of which I blame on hormones. This was just made worse yesterday when I found out that Mark would not be able to come to our ultrasound, even though I have moved the appointment several times. I just never expected to be alone for it. I guess that this is just something that happens. I am sure that he will be there for other ultrasounds, so I should get that stiff upper lip thing going.

This is not nearly the fun and up beat post that I had planned on writing, so I will leave you with a cute little story. Tonight a very dear friend came over with her little boy and he crawled for the first time in my living room. He also almost said his first word "fish" as he was looking intently at my huge angel fish. He said "fshhh", that almost counts, right?