To My One and Only

How does one fully express the depth of everlasting love? Easy, you can't, so you show it in eveything you do and say. That is what you do for me everyday.



I love you so much.



Happy Anniversary.

Just Being Calm

thank you so much for the advice from you all. I really appreciate that you took the time to help me. To all who don't know, my blood pressure has come down a little now that life has gotten a little calmer. I am trying to make sure that I take time every day to rest and spend time bonding with the baby to be. Some days are better than others. My mom has been a huge help with taking me to appointments and being a sounding board for all of my insane worries. There are less than 10 weeks until this baby arrives and i am trying to make all of the big decisions now so that I am ready for when it arrives.

As I have never done this before, I have a little question for all of those who have done this a time or two; What is one thing you wish people would have told you prior to having your baby that would have made the first few weeks at home easier? Also, if anyone has any reccommendations of a good "first years" or new baby book, that would be most welcome.

Again, thank you for the advice, I am doing my best to listen to both it and my doctor's.

Advice needed

Hello All!

After a particularly depressing doctor's visit today, I am in need of some advice. My weight has gone down again and my blood pressure is way up. Can anyone offer some advice at how to get me to relax without exerting too much effort, as I am officially banned from strenuous activity. I want to get my blood pressure back down so that I can continue this pregnancy without worrying. Thankfully, it is not so high as to worry about preclampsia or anything, it is just way higher than it has been during the rest of the pregnancy.

Advice is welcome.

It's so hard to say goodbye.

How does one fully express one's self at the passing of a loved one? You can reminisce about the time spent together, cry about the missed opportunities for the future, or .... what? My beloved Grandma passed away very suddenly this weekend, and I must admit that I am at a loss at how to express what I feel. I am devastated for sure, but there is this edge of surealism that is preventing the healing process, because I just can't believe that she is really gone.

I have great bunch of siblings that are reaching out to help my mother at this time. I don't think that most people would consider a 57- year-old who has lost both parents to be a orphan, but I know that this is how she feels. I think that the greatest blessing to come out of this is now we can give my grandmother the opportunity to accept the gospel and be sealed to my grandfather. No one in my mother's family is a member of our church, but they worked very hard to be supportive of the things that were important to us like when my brothers went on missions and when we were all married in the Temple. considering we were their only grandchildren, I thought that this was very nice.

My grandmother was a vital part of my life. I am not close with my dad's family at all, but my mom's family was always there for every important occasion, be it dance recitals, band concerts, graduations, etc. She was also there for the non important stuff, the evey day stuff. And it was through these occasions that I learned how important she was to me. My best memories of childhood involve sitting on this high stool in her sunny kitchen swinging back and forth as I told her some tale (always exaggerated) and she patiently listened as she was making something and then said, "well, that was sure some story Miss Jessie, are you sure that this is how it happened?" My grandma always called me Miss Jessie. She had since I was little, and continued to this day.

I loved my grandma and I will miss her so terribly. My biggest regret is that my children will not have the opportunity to know her personally. Love you and Miss you Grandma.

Hildegard Betty Binnie

December 26, 1924-May 3, 2008

Beloved Mother, Grandmother, and Friend

It's a....!!!

HUMAN! Yahoo!

So, to explain, I went for my ultrasound the other day and we confirmed that this being within me is of the human variety,(what a relief!) and that it has all of it's important limbs etc. Anyone who has spoken to me as of the last couple of weeks knows that I have been having nightmares about a one armed baby, so it was quite a relief to have them confirm, several times at my request, that the baby did indeed have two arms. I have to admit that after this appointment, I have been feeling really good about the whole pregnancy thing. It relieved my mind that the baby was healthy and whole.

I didn't find out what I was having. This is for a few reasons. First, I didn't want to. Second, the baby wouldn't have let the tech find out even if I wanted to know. She had to chase it around just to get the pictures that she needed. It was really funny to watch how frustrated that she was getting.

The baby is very long and skinny and has a perfect turned up nose. The tech was really cute when she saw the profile of the baby. she sighed and said, " oh, this is going to be a cute baby, look at it, it is just perfect!" Now I realize that she probably says this to every nervous expectant mother, but I still felt really good when she said that.

I guess I just keep incubating and hope that the baby doesn't get too much bigger. Long and skinny is just fine for me.

Oh, and I find out the results of my gestational diabetes check today. Wish me luck!

Over Halfway

Hello all,

I am now officially out of hiding, or at least I finally feel like I am coming out of the fog that has been surrounding me for months. I am now over halfway through my pregnancy and the fog of sickness, worry, and doubt has begun to lift away from me. I have spent so much time and energy being scared that something awful would happen again during this pregnancy, that I don't think that I enjoyed it very much, so I am making more of an effort for the second half.

Work is ridiculous! I was so worried that when I told my clients to expect a brief absence in late August and Early September, that many would find another, non-pregnant stylist to go see. Thankfully, this has not been the case and I am very blessed that they are as excited, if not more so, than me and they have been so supportive and loving. I guess this is what happens when you have clients for many years.

I miss Mark. He has only been working for a few days and already I feel like he is gone all the time. I am sad and emotional, most of which I blame on hormones. This was just made worse yesterday when I found out that Mark would not be able to come to our ultrasound, even though I have moved the appointment several times. I just never expected to be alone for it. I guess that this is just something that happens. I am sure that he will be there for other ultrasounds, so I should get that stiff upper lip thing going.

This is not nearly the fun and up beat post that I had planned on writing, so I will leave you with a cute little story. Tonight a very dear friend came over with her little boy and he crawled for the first time in my living room. He also almost said his first word "fish" as he was looking intently at my huge angel fish. He said "fshhh", that almost counts, right?

Goodbye Mickey!

i know that this may sound mean, but I hate mice. I realize that in the creation, that all animals were placed on the earth for a reason. This does not mean that I need to love them all. This principle particularly applies when the aforementioned animal has taken up residence in one's home. Translation, we had a mouse in our house! I do say had, as he is no longer with us, nor is he anywhere else (unless you count the garbage can out back).

Our home is old and therefore prone to the little suckers and this one was cagey. He was so hard to catch because he was so little. He wouldn't set off traditional traps because he was too light. The glue traps were another story. We caught him within hours setting up the gue traps and then the big question was what to do to eliminate the poor thing. We consulted family and chose the most humane option and then we thought, yes we are mouse free. We were able to think this for approximately 1 hour until we saw his friend run across our hallway. Stupid mice! However, I am happy to report that all mice have been found and caught (there were only the two) and now we can rest in peace.

I am now in the process of steam cleaning our carpets and vacuuming everything to remove any traces of mouse inhabitation.

I am not sorry to say that we got rid of these mice. I am very glad that they are gone. I always was a fan of Donald Duck, never the mouse!